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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 20:10:26 GMT -5
Tsuki blinked the sorrow from her eyes as they met Hawkstorm's. It was too painful- knowing of her past, knowing that she would die soon without someone to love or care for. Ignorance was bliss; why did she have to be one to live without it? The she-cat rested her tail on Hawkstorm's back as she glanced at Ryuu. Her brother was looking down at where the snow stopped, small flakes of white hanging in his darkned fur.
"Ryuu...."
"What?" His tone was harsh- harsher than he had ever forced at his sister.
"Are you-"
"I'm fine."
"But you-"
"No, I don't."
"Stop lying to yourself, brother."
"I wouldn't lie to you." the two continued to speak with their eyes cast away form the other; their time apart had shown in views.
"Nor I to you."
"Good. Then let's not question what what need not be asked."
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Post by Wavestorm on Jan 31, 2007 20:10:27 GMT -5
Vani nodded and sat down behind Tigerheart. She knew what he was doing. He was trying to keep her away from Hawkstorm. That means he still doesn't trust me still. she spat to herself. I have to gain his trust or I'll never be able to get any information on the RA...
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 20:14:26 GMT -5
Hawkstorm raised an eyebrow at the siblings. " What are you two speaking giberish about?" She asked unenthusiastically. " Plotting my death? I'm dead enough as it is..." Her tone wasn't normal. Even Tigerheart noted the hint of losing control embedded deep in the words of the she-cat.
Spots said nothing, but Tigerheart flicked his tial. Spots rose to his paws and padded over towards him and sat on the other side of Vani, sensing the mistrust in Tigerheart's eyes.
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 20:18:35 GMT -5
The she-cat rose her gaze to Hawkstorm as she spoke: "No, it's nothing to do with you, Hawkstorm. It's about our mother," she whispered the last of the words. Ryuu rose and trotted off to sit by Memory and Karma. His yellow eyes did not rise to meet Tsuki's as he fled form the scene. "He really does care about her. He doesn't fully love her, if you went by that standard, but... he knows that he could never truely hate her. That's why he hates himself. He thinks we's weak."
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Post by Wavestorm on Jan 31, 2007 20:21:05 GMT -5
Vani glared coldy at the tom."What do you want?" she growled. She was a little surprised at how cold her voice sounded. It almost sounded like her when she lost faith in Starclan. She turned her gaze away from the rogue and curled her tail around her paws. There was nothing to do but sit and wait for Tigerheart to tell them to do something.
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 20:25:27 GMT -5
Tigerheart let out a deep growl. " You will not speak to Spots that way." He growled. Spots winced.
Hawkstorm sighed. Inside she was arguing.
I'll never love again!
But you already do!
Realy? Who? No, I'm over Skullpaw. I loved him for long.
No, not Skullpaw. The other one.
Who!?
Take a guess.
No! I don't like him- or do I?
Yes, you do. Admit it.
I barely know him!
Get over that fact.
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Post by Wavestorm on Jan 31, 2007 20:29:26 GMT -5
Vani rolled her eyes and layed down in the patch off moss. "What ever you say." she mummbled and began grooming herself. She looked up every once in a while to see if Spots was still there. SHe hated to be watched like she was still a day old kit.
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 20:33:27 GMT -5
"Do not be a fool, Vani. I'm sure you wouldn't want to die because of it," Ryuu growled. It was uncommon for him to be in a mood worse than normal, but there it was.
Tsuki tilted her head slightly. If it had been another place at another time, she wouldn't sworn the vauge sound of voices rung through her head- both echoing Hawkstorm. No. Don't be crazy. You can't read minds, or tell what others are thinking if they aren't Ryuu. Don't be foolish. The she-cat gave Hawkstorm a gentle lick and whispered "Don't give up" once more to the warrior before she trailed Ryuu to the back of the den.
A pair of silver-blue eyes gleamed in the pine forest surrounding the cavern, gaze locked on the she-cat. "Hawkstorm," the voice mewed quietly; it was one uncommon to anyone but Hawkstorm. Shadowlurker.
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 20:37:28 GMT -5
Hawkstorm paused at Tsuki's words. Had she heard what she was thinking? Hawkstorm couldn't see in the darkness. Hearing her name and thinking it was someone, she stood up and padded outside. She froze dead at the side of the cavern as she saw Shadowlurker. " What are you doing here?! If Tigerheart sees you here, he'll tear your throat out. Go home, Shadowlurker!"
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 20:44:43 GMT -5
"I don't care," he mewed cooly and touched noses with Hawkstorm for a moment without thinking before withdrawing, eyes cast upon the snow his paws had shuffled in his wake. "I needed to see if you were okay. I knew that you could handle yourself against anyone that came at you, but still. I had to know. The entire camp seems dead without you around...." The tom looked to the falling snow and took in the silence for a moment before he continued: "Everyone's worried about you. Spottedpelt, Thunderstar, and Tsuki before she ran out in a mad chase after her mother and ran strait here."
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 20:48:23 GMT -5
" Just go home and tell everyone I'm alright." Was all Hawkstorm could say. She had gone for 3 days, yet had promised to be back in 3 hours. " The Clan won't miss me too much. I have my real friends here- Ryuu and Tsuki- well, more Tsuki than Ryuu but whatever." She sighed. " Shadowlurker, I know you love me. But I'm not sure if I can love you back..."
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 20:54:32 GMT -5
"It doesn't matter if you love me back," the dark tom mewed, his voice slightly shaken at the words forced from himself. "I'll still love you until the end of time. But I can't just leave you here- it's just bad nature." Shadowlurker took his gaze from the sky and looked to the silver begnal: "I can't leave the soul of the clan out with the rouges, regardless if you want to come back. I want to stay with you, Hawkstorm."
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 21:00:59 GMT -5
" Shadowlurker, if you stay, you'll get killed!" hawkstorm hissed in a whisper-like voice. " Go home. The Clan needs you." Hawkstorm's eyes read that she thought she had found a new love. " Shadowlurker, why do you care so much?!"
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Post by Wavestorm on Jan 31, 2007 21:02:00 GMT -5
Vani closed her eyes and let the wind blow into her face. She took in a deep breathe and tensed. Was that Shadowlurker? she thought to herself. Another Stormclan cat had came to the RA. Whats happening back at the camp? She had to fight off an urge to run out of the cave and check on her clan.
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 21:07:03 GMT -5
"Because it's who I am," Shadowlurker mewed as he rose to his paw one more. "I love you, and would rather die in place of you. They need me as much as they need you, and they've always wanted you. I've always wanted you. If you don't feel the same, it's okay. But that doesn't mean I'll ever stop caring about you, Hawkstorm." His paws advanced on the she-cat as he spoke. pausing barely an inch from her face beefore the tom could draw himself back. "That I swear."
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 21:12:50 GMT -5
Hawkstorm took a step back from the tom. " Look, Shadowlurker," Hawkstorm looked down at the ground. " It's took late for me. I've had a dream from StarClan. I'm going to die sooner than anyone could imagine, Shadowlurker. I'm not going to live here much longer." Hawkstorm finally met the tom's gaze.
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 21:21:00 GMT -5
SHadowlurker held a weak smile as he looked into Hawkstorms eyes. "There is no thing that is always right or that is inevitable. But even if this is one of those things that we can not change, there is no limit to love. Look at Darkshadow- he still cares for Whitesage. And I'm sure Fernstar and Blackstripe are happy to be reunited in Starclan. And even if I can give you ust a little time left, I'd be happy for that. Even if it was just an hour or a day. Just a little- and it would still never change a thing."
||I dislike this post. *nods*||
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 21:24:58 GMT -5
" Please, Shadowlurker! Go home! Sooner or later Tigerheart's going to come out and see you, then rip your guts out!" Hawkstorm begged. " I care about you, Shadowlurker. Not as much as you care about me, though. I've already said I think I've found someone new. Shadowlurker, you cannot cling to me for dear life."
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 21:31:27 GMT -5
Shadowlurker dropped the breath he held and was silent for a moment. So she did already care for someone else. Dude, it doesn't matter. You know where your loyalties lie. "Then you deserve to live with that someone else as long as you can. I don't care if I get torn to pieces as long as you're happy. If anything, please, just go and tell them you care for them. I'll cover for you- I'll do anything I possibly can to give you some time. I don't care about my life as ong as yours is safe."
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 21:36:01 GMT -5
Hawkstorm licked their ear. " The problem is, I'll be rejected. There's a 100% chance of that. I'm scared, Shadowlurker. I don't want to be rejected again." Hawkstorm nearly cried. Her eyes were getting watery as she poured her heart out into this... this... this tom.
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 21:40:47 GMT -5
Shadowlurker rested his head on her's, releasing a small purr: "Then you can die knowing that you tried, even though I don't know anyone foolish enough to turn you down. If I can ask, who?" His eyes were closed with pain from knowing his one-sided love, but her held back the tears with of hid might. He couldn't give in. Not now, the only time when Hawkstorm, when anyone had really needed him.
||Love can do crazy things. BLURB! X3||
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 21:43:20 GMT -5
Hawkstorm shook her head. " It's embarrasing," was all she could choke out of her dry throat. She sat down, she knew Shadowlurker wasn't planning on moving anytime soon. She stared at him with big blue eyes, on the verge of tears. " I don't even know why I like him."
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 21:48:11 GMT -5
"Love is a strange thing," Shadowlurker mewed from above the she-cat. "It'll mess with your mind and soul until you're forced to give into it and let it go. Maybe it's because you know he liked you way back when, or he was a friend when times were tough, or he just knew the right things to say. You want to know something I've realized over time?" he mewed, shifting his weight steadily and rocking the two side to side. "The more you accept the fact and accept who you are, the easier everything seems to be. Period."
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Post by Wavestorm on Jan 31, 2007 21:49:30 GMT -5
"Hawkstorm? Shadowlurker?" A brown tom asked as he appeared out of the bushes. His fur was soaked and plastered with mud."What are you guys doing here?" He looked around to see if his father was any where. If he saw Wavepaw here he might kill him right here right now. He turned his attention back to Hawkstorm and Shadowlurker, his green gaze watching the two carefully.
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 21:50:40 GMT -5
Time. The word echoed through her mind. " Shadowlurker, just go home. I know for a fact I'll be rejected, it's happened to me five times already. What are you waiting for? For me to turn into a mushroom?"The she froze. " Wavepaw!" She spat in a hushed whisper. " What are you doing here! You want your dad to claw your ears off? Go home!"
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Post by Wavestorm on Jan 31, 2007 21:56:46 GMT -5
"I don't care. I want you to come back to the clans. You can't stay here." he replied." Besides I know the pain your going through and coming here is not the way to ease it. He carefully padded up to them and sat down making sure that Tigerheart couldn't see him. He looked at Hawkstorm carefully. Her eyes were clouded with confusion and hurt."I'm sorry." Wavepaw whispered to her. He knew it wouldn't do much,but it was a start. He had to bring her back to the clans.
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Post by Kuromai on Jan 31, 2007 21:57:38 GMT -5
Shadowlurker withdrew from Hawkstorm in an instant and turned to face the apprntince, an annoyed look held in his eyes. "Wavepaw, get outta here. I'll be back soon- no one would want you to get hurt and to have me carry you all the way back to camp." His gaze shifted to Hawkstorm, the question of who still hung in his eyes.
||Bah.||
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Jan 31, 2007 22:00:04 GMT -5
" I'm not telling you," Hawkstorm whispered to Shadowlurker. " Wavepaw, you furball! You have no clue what I'm going through. And no one cares... no one cares until I'm actually gone. Now I'm gone for good. You don't even know the meaning of rejection, Wavepaw. You have Silentpaw. Go home."
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Post by Wavestorm on Jan 31, 2007 22:13:33 GMT -5
"You don't think I know what rejection is like? I have TIgerheart as my father. All he does is kill cats. He almost killed my mother, his mate.I've seen what your past was like. I understand how it feels to have a heartless father." Wavepaw hissed and eyed the she cat carefully."But your problem with rejection from toms, I will never understand fully. I do understand that all you do is push the tom away. Like Shadowlurker here. he cares for you and yet you push him away. Same with me. I wanted to talk to you and become more than friends, but you showed me that you didn't want me to be with you."
//I don't like this post.//
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Post by Bramble on Feb 1, 2007 9:55:24 GMT -5
It was back. It was full. It was Ramesis, back from killing. His paws red with blood, his eyes pale yet satisfied. "Tigerheart. I've returned to the RA to help with prisoner control. Please forgive me for my treachery." His eyes where softened.
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