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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 25, 2007 17:43:42 GMT -5
" Jadepaw," Cloverpaw whispered. " I'm expecting your brothers kits!" She half purred, half hissed at the thought.
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 25, 2007 17:53:54 GMT -5
Jadepaw nodded slightly. "So I would infer. He had been boasting about a family of his own lately- and I couldn't assume that he was bragging about me. Congradulations on the kits. Apologies that they had to be my brother's with who he is. Just...." She paused. "Just try not to leave them before they're old enough to cope with it." Her parents had died when they were about 5 moons old; it was just enought time for Spiderpaw to assume his place of power with her as his lacky. Time was of the essance. "And for that, I will assist you with them if needed. And if asked, I would recommend saying he died in battle. It softens the blow until they can accept the full truth."
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 25, 2007 18:02:55 GMT -5
Cloverpaw nodded. " Thank-you, Jadepaw. My parents died when I was young, too. My mother died just a few days after she gave birth, and my father died a few days after I accidentally killed another kit." Cloverpaw sighed. " We've both led rough lives, but I am glad you will help me, Jadepaw. You're heart is a pure one."
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 25, 2007 18:19:06 GMT -5
Jadepaw gave a stifled chuckle with a shake of her head. "My heart is even more twisted than Spiderpaw's. He at least knew what he wanted out of life, and he got it. He had power, even if it was only for a short time over a few cats. That's one place where I can say that I can't live up to him. He had a purpose." Then she fell silent, at a loss for what to say that wouldn't give herself away completely. Like it matters. You just fill in for him- that's what you were ment to do. Be his assistnt, clean up after him. Have his priorities and nothing more."
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 25, 2007 18:43:42 GMT -5
" Don't say that, Jadepaw." The newly named queen mewed. " Your purpose is to live the life of a StormClan cat and suffer the woes of life and love the joys it can sometimes bring." Cloverpaw mewed. " You never know."
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 25, 2007 18:51:38 GMT -5
"What of joy have I felt?" Jadepaw mewed, more to herself than Cloverpaw. "What life have I lived? I was ment to be a slave from my birth, and now I have no purpose that my slave-driver is gone. I must take up where he had left off in cares, but that is for you and your kits. You shall die one day as well, and where would that leave me? To watch over your kits, my nieces and nephews? Is that my purpose... to serve all of those around me? Probably," she muttered, her eyes shifting from the sky to her paws for only a moment. "I have no right to joy in life so far. That's probably just how it's ment to be." Jadepaw gavce no sign of sorrow; her words only held a tone of remorse, of obdience. Like it always did.
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 25, 2007 19:04:00 GMT -5
" When one leads a rough life from the beggining, it is always destined to get better in the end." Cloverpaw nudged Jadepaw confortingly. " You are not a slave, and never were."
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 25, 2007 19:20:24 GMT -5
Jadepaw smiled weakly before she could bring herself to look at Cloverpaw. Her green eyes were hopeless, dark. Maniacial without any form of drive. "That is where our paths split, Cloverpaw. You've had a life at some point, and will continue having a future now that Spiderpaw is gone. But for me? I am caged into my past, for I have nothing else to look for in life. Now I will merely live and die, waiting for the moment until we are reunited. And then the cycle will continue. My reason to live was comprised the moment I was born next to Spiderpaw."
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 25, 2007 19:58:59 GMT -5
" Do you wish to have a purpose?" Cloverpaw asked gently, her question sincere.
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 25, 2007 20:04:24 GMT -5
Jadepaw let the silence sink in for a moment, face expressionless. "I...I wouldn't know," she mewed quietly after a time. "It's not like it's something I've ever had before. I can't say that I would end up being better off without it, but...." She trailed off, eyes looking back to her paws from Cloverpaw.
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 25, 2007 20:15:21 GMT -5
" Your new purpose in life is to be my friend, to guide my kits, and to be their friend. You are going to be their aunt, afterall." Cloverpaw smiled. " Jadepaw, just because Spiderpaw is gone doesn't mean your life is over."
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 25, 2007 20:24:16 GMT -5
"That also doesn't mean I had a life to begin with. All I am is one to be there, be there to serve whomever happens to be around me. Nothing more. Your choice of the word friend... it, to me, seems as strange and foregin as seeing Spiderpaw having a mate. I can only be the same to you and everyone like you. Just...someone." Jadepaw rose to her feet and padded to the other side of the camp, not wanting to be barraged with these strange concepts anymore. Friend? Aunt? None of that matterd. It didn't change who she was.
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 25, 2007 20:30:16 GMT -5
Cloverpaw sighed. " Why do I always say the wrong things?" She asked aloud, her eyes regretful. " I'm a moron." She sighed and stood up, not wanting to talk to anyone anymore.
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Post by Ravenpaw Sweetsoul Wolfkit on Feb 25, 2007 21:19:55 GMT -5
Rabbitheart raised her head. She looked at all her kits. Then saw that Dustpaw had disappeared. She her eyes widin. Then a strange cat scent dirfted into her nose. Scent of blood to. "Dustpaw missing," she mummbled.
(Haha bad Zink is cat napping poor Dustpaw)
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Post by Dappledcheetah on Feb 26, 2007 13:58:05 GMT -5
Swiftpaw was taken aback from the sudden yell from Cloverpaw and he walked towards her quickly. "Ye..yes" he meowed his voice shaky he looked at Cloverpaw waitng for her to speak, if she didnt like him then tier was always other she-cats, he told himself. It didnt seem to make him feel any better but anyway.
Spottedpelt looked at Jadepaw and walked towards her "Arre you okay Jadepaw?" he meowed before she was just talking to Cloverpaw now she was here alone, he looked at her concerned.
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Post by Blackleg on Feb 26, 2007 16:02:47 GMT -5
Tanglepaw sniffed the air, 'Brother...' she thought, 'Where are you?' He had been the only one she had ever been close too, they had been closer to eachother then to their parents.
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 26, 2007 16:06:59 GMT -5
" Did I tell you to leave?" Cloverpaw asked shortly. " No. So, Swiftpaw, what were you trying to tell me earlier? Ah, you've probably forgotten by now. Anyway, Swiftpaw, I'm s... s---" Cloverpaw started to make a noise like she was coughing up a hairball. " S.......... SORRY. There, happy? I said it."
Stonefur looked around for Tsuki.
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 26, 2007 19:27:35 GMT -5
Jadepaw took no notice of Spottedpelt for a moment, glancing past the tom at Cloverpaw's outburst. I should probably fix that later... she thought, signing. "Fine as I will ever be, Spottedpelt," she mewed. Her paws went to Spiderpaw's body; she began to drag the corpse out of camp, alone, as she was meant to. "Things for me will never change." You always do things wrong. Spiderpaw was always right- saying you were nothing more than dirt to him, just nothing. And see where you've gotten trying to go against that. No. You're wrong, and he's right. Again. It couldn't be said that Jadepaw was new to breating herself up mentally. She would just have to do it more, as her brother wouldn't be able to do his share.
Tsuki sighed and shook her head at Cloverpaw. "Do you think we should've tried to stop him before, back when we where kits? We had always known things would end up bad...."
"But that was a feeling, and we've been wrong before. We just happened to get the good mized with the bad." Ryuu sighed and began licking his paw, Tsuki waving her tail at her mentor in greeting.
||Bah.||
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 26, 2007 19:36:43 GMT -5
Sheena bounced out of the nursery with a kittish giggle. She had opened her days a day earlier than normal, and had forced herself to walk on nimble paws. " Yeahee-he-hee!" Was what her giggle sounded like as she fell from under her paws. She stood up again, bouncing up to Ryuu. " DADDY!" She shrieked, clinging to her father's foreleg, the whole time under the watchful eye of Hawkstorm.
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Post by Dappledcheetah on Feb 26, 2007 21:51:10 GMT -5
Swiftpaw looked at Cloverpaw "No I havnt forgotten" he meowed tears in his eyes, "Cloverpaw Im going to move on, cause you dont like me" he meowed tears dripping down his face "Your the most beatuful she-cat I know and you probably always will be" he meowed.
Spottedpelt wacthed Jadepaw before he walked towards her "Well you dont look happy" he meowed
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 26, 2007 21:53:29 GMT -5
Cloverpaw cuffed Swiftpaw over the ear. " Stop being a walking, talking, crying furball!" She hissed, a glimmer of amusement in her green eyes. " Did I say I didn't love you? No."
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 26, 2007 22:09:03 GMT -5
"Like it really matters," Jadepaw hissed under her breath to Cloverpaw as she went by with Spiderpaw hard in her jaw. She didn't take a response to Spottedpelt until after she was clear out of the camp, nearing the edge of the territory. "Happiness is not someting I deserve," she finally muttered; she dropped spiderpaw for a moment, allowing herself a rest and time to speak. "Nor is it something I shall ever chose to have. It is too foregin a concept for me to...." The she-cat trailed off, returning to dragging the body further and further off of Stormclan territory.
||Bah.||
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Post by Dappledcheetah on Feb 26, 2007 22:14:35 GMT -5
Spottedpelt looked at Jadepaw and follwed her "What?" he spat "You out of all cats deverse happyness so dont talk crap" he spat cuffing the she-cat over the ears "Dont say that about yourself" he meowed.
Swiftpaw stopped crying and looked at cloverpaw "You...you do then?" he asked looking at the she-cat he wasnt sure if he should look happy or sad.
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 26, 2007 22:16:40 GMT -5
" No, I said fish can turn into rainbows!" Cloverpaw mewed sarcastically. Then she thought about Tanglepaw. Her expression changed quickly.
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Post by Dappledcheetah on Feb 26, 2007 22:19:35 GMT -5
"Im really confussed at the moment so il ask you, Do you love me?" he asked the she-cat, "And please dont bring Tanglepaw into tghis" he meowed, "I do not love her" he meowed crossly
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Post by Thunderstar♥ on Feb 26, 2007 22:21:59 GMT -5
" Funny. That's not what you said on Thunderstar's patrol when they found Sapphirepaw. You yelled out you liked Tanglepaw." Cloverpaw found herself to be very moody lately.
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Post by Dappledcheetah on Feb 26, 2007 22:32:56 GMT -5
Swiftpaw sighed "Cloverpaw for star-clans sake I was saying that so Sapphirepaw could shut her month" he meowed
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 26, 2007 22:35:44 GMT -5
"You speak as if you know my torment," Jadepaw whispered through Spiderpaw's pelt, finally reaching a spot sutible enough to bury her final kin. "Just you can call yourself my clanmate doesn't mean you're in the least my friend. Not to be ruse- it's just fact. I have no friends. And don't bring up my brother or his- or Cloverpaw. I am more their lacky than all else to their souls." Her claws dug into the soil just over a slight hangover of a cave, digging half-way down before dropping in Spiderpaw's body and sealing it back up. She turned and began padding back to camp, remose none. "And yet you speak as though you are my friend. Why is that?"
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Post by Dappledcheetah on Feb 26, 2007 22:45:46 GMT -5
Spottedpelt looked at Jdepaw he looked stung cause of her words, as he looked inot her eyes, "Well for one I like you, and two I thought I was contuned as a friend but I can see im not" he meowed.
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Post by Kuromai on Feb 26, 2007 22:55:55 GMT -5
Jadepaw didn't meet his gaze, her green eyes still locked hard at the ground. "You can not like me, for that is not who I am. I am not one to be cared for as more than a being; that is, if I'm honored with that status. That is what fate has intended for me. For others to fall on, not a thing worthy of feelings or to recieve them. You should just go off and find another she0cat while you still have the chance, Spottedpelt. Don't let the life you're allowed to have pass you by, fool. Don't waste your time with me." Jadepaw allowed her paws to fly through the rest of the territory, to run. Something she hadn't done in a long time. She ended, panting, just atop the waterfall that garuded the clan camp. How demanding... she thought, looking over the ledge to the rushing water.
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